Before I was a Mom

• Before I was a Mom;
  I made and ate hot meals,
  I had unstained clothing,
  I brushed my hair every day,
  I had quiet conversations on the phone,
  I slept as late as I wanted and I slept all night long.
  
  
• Before I was a Mom;
  I cleaned my house each day,
  I never tripped over toys or forgot lullabies,
  I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous,
  I had never been puked on, pooped on, spit on, chewed on, peed on, or pinched by tiny fingers.
  
  
• Before I was a Mom;
  I never thought about immunizations,
  I never held a screaming child so the doctors could give shots,
  I never looked into teary eyes and cried,
  I never felt my heart break into pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt,
  I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
  
  
• Before I was a Mom;
  I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put it down,
  I never sat up late hours of the night watching a baby sleep,
  I never got up in the middle of the night to make sure everything was okay,
  I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.
  
  
• Before I was a Mom;
  I had complete control of my mind, my thoughts and my body,
  I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside of my body,
  I didn't know that having something so small could make me feel so important,
  I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment, or the satisfaction of being a mom.
  
  
• Before I was a Mom;
  I never knew that something so small could effect my life so much,
  I never knew that I could love someone so much,
  I never knew I would love being a Mom,
  I didn't know the bond between a Mother and her child,
  I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much.
  
  
• Before I was Natalie's Mom.
  

- Sharon L. Twitchell -

[ by: Sharon L. Twitchell Copyright © 2002 (sltwitchell@comcast.net) -- submitted by: Sharon L. Twitchell ]