I hold my Bible in my Lap
Afraid to look inside.
After many years of doing right
Part of me has died.
I believed in the impossible
Even though it never came true.
I told myself Be strong in God
He believes in you.
Guard your heart, protect your mind.
The truth is always there to find.
Walk the talk, stay the path-
Avoid the evil, fear the wrath.
I prayed, I read, and fasted too.
Everyday the Lord I knew.
And then one day I realized
I did it all for nought….
For no matter what I believed
I lost every battle fought.
It didn’t matter what the Bible said
Cuz “free will” really reigns….
And that gets me everytime
Driving me insane.
Every door I walk up too
Gets shut right in my face.
Reminding me where I belong-
Put back in my place.
My “free will” gave me to God
He didn’t pick me on his own.
Just like with my mom and my husband
That’s all I’ve ever known.
Just once I’d like to be chosen
And loved for who I am.
Appreciated for my heart my life
My caring of the lamb.
I’d like for God to look at me
And know I’m worthy too.
Just once I’d like him to fight for me
And make a promise come true.
I hold my Bible in my lap
My faith all broke apart.
Jesus… will you notice me
And love me for a start?
~ Tammi Jo ~
[ by: Tammi Jo, Copyright © 2006 (tmercer@indep.k12.mo.us) -- submitted by: Tammi Jo ]
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