Becoming "Dad"
How difficult it is to become a Dad. Oh, you might think it's not. It is in
fact a natural thing, a moment when two make one. But I am speaking
about the act of filling the shoes, playing the part, becoming a "Dad."
They had arrived at the beach just minutes after Marianne and I had just
settled down. I was under the umbrella, she was already greased up and
ready to face the sun. Off to our right this young couple arrived
loaded with all the equipment necessary to feed and protect their
newborn. I learned later that the child was just 6 months old.
Mom carried the child Dad carried everything else. Both had an
important role to play, for this was their first time ever at the beach
as "family."
It is a new beginning, a ritual of sorts, for they are creating memories
for a lifetime.
Dad is claiming his place today like all the father's before him. In
the next few minutes he will either successful accomplish his assigned
task of setting up this family beach site or fail miserably under
pressure. It sets the pace for all future attempts at becoming the man
both his wife and child hope for.
But his wife isn't going to make it easy.
"You brought that?" she asks. "Why in God's name did you bring that
stupid cabana thing. You should have brought the umbrella."
"This will be better for her. It will keep the wind from her and
protect her from the sun," he said. I could almost hear him grunting,
you know like a proud manly man.
"It will not! The wind is blowing so hard, it will pick her up and take
her away," she replies.
He whimpers, slightly wounded.
"Well, I'll take her down by the water. You set that thing up. You
brought it," she says. He growls beneath his breath.
I sat watching him, wanting desperately to run over and help him. I
wanted to save this young guy from defeat. But this is what life is
made of, this moment in time and moments gathered and collected for
years to come. So I sat watching him. He fought valiantly, looking up
periodically to she where they were. I know he wanted to have it ready
before her, "I told you so, victory return"
He was meeting his challenge. I looked down at the beach and saw them
approaching. "Come on buddy! You can do it!" I cheered in my heart.
He did it! Mother and child stared in awe and amazement. He awaited
his accolades.
"You didn't put her blanket in there. That surface will be too hot!"
she said. "Now there's your first lesson about men, honey. You have to
help them every step of the way"
In my heart I was booing her. I growled. She turned and stared at me
sensing my attempt at unifying in spirit with him. My upper lip curled
defiantly, but I retreated.
In my mind he was successful. In her soul she knew she had married the
right guy. But it is not in her nature to acknowledge that so early on.
Then it all came rushing back to me. I watched as he walked down to the
shore line. He turned to look at them several times. He stood there
now a father, in earlier times perhaps they walked this beach hand in
hand as lovers. Now, as a new family, those precious moments have given
way to reality. They have responsibilities for each other and for their
child. He walks along looking lonely and lost. She lays nearby the
baby torn between what once was and what is now. They take turns as she
now heads down to the waters edge alone and longing for what was and
what is.
Having been there myself, my mind fast forwards seeing them both in
future times.
The scene as I see it:
They have returned to this beautiful resort by the sea every year now.
It has become a part of the family tradition. Dad now has made his mark
and successfully played the role of father for about two decades. This
time his daughter is walking on the beach by his side, holding his hand.
"Daddy, We've been coming here now since I was a baby. You have given
me a lifetime of memories here," she says.
"I can remember the first time we brought you here," he tells her.
"Daddy, when I was away at school I missed being with you a few summers.
I want you to know it wasn't easy," she says.
"It just wasn't the same without you honey," he says with tears in his
eyes. "But I know it is a part of life. You are growing up. One day
you'll meet a man who will take you from us for good. He will have to
be a special man," Dad says.
"Daddy, he is," she says as she stops and holds both his hands.
"What?" replies Dad.
"Daddy, that's why I wanted to be here this year for this vacation. You
have given me so many wonderful memories. I wanted to give you one,"
she says.
Then bowing her head for a moment and then glancing up to look him
directly in his eyes she says, "Daddy, John has asked me to marry him.
I said yes."
He pauses for a moment. Then embracing her, they spin around as they
hug a hug of joy.
Back to today, this moment in time...
Who knows. Perhaps years from now this wet-behind-the-ears father I see
before me will one walk this same beach with his grandchild.
He's struggling with what he needs to do next and I have already seen
his future. How? I walked this beach before with my children. For now
I am in limbo between Dad and Grandpa.
In the meantime Marianne and I cherish these few days together alone,
waiting desperately to play the part and walk hand in hand with my
grandchild.
Perhaps I will be here the day he is walking with his daughter. Should
I warn him it all comes too soon?
No, that's a part of "Becoming Dad," too.
Excuse me. The cabana he put together just blew away. He forgot to
fasten it down.
Growl !!!!!
~ Bob Perks ~
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