I have been through enough of those moments
when life was bearing down on me that I finally
wished that I could just be "left alone."
The thought of going somewhere by myself
would give me so much pleasure.
But then I'd remember when I was alone. Not
that everyone left me. I was alone by myself
in crowded places. It was the wall that I built
around me that would not permit the outside
in or the inside out.
When I was a child I would play this silly game.
I would try to find a place where no one could
find me. It was always easy because a spot
in a corner or under a table would do.
My favorite place was simply to pull a blanket
over my head. I would lie there and think,
"Right now no one in the world knows where I
am!"
That thought was so satisfying.
If you know me well enough by now this won't
surprise you...I still do it at 60. It drives my
dogs crazy, because they find me and start
digging at the blanket until they find a way in.
All three of them join me.
That thought is so satisfying, too.
I want you to know that at times we all wish
that we could be left alone. That's okay.
The fact that you can be alone with yourself and
enjoy it speak volumes about who you are.
Really.
Imagine for a moment being locked in a room
with someone you disliked. It would be
torture. So, if you find peace with being
with you, that comes across as self
confidence.
But if you are trying to build a wall so no one
can ever get in, it can't happen. God is there
with you and the light of love finds a way through
the tiniest cracks.
You are loved even when you are not lovable,
even when you don't want to love in return and
even when the pain of love feels greater than
the joy of love.
You can pull the covers over your head and
love will find you.
"I'll see you in my prayers!"
"I wish you enough!"
J
~ Bob Perks ~
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